How to Lean in and Whisper It is Well in the midst of Sorrow

How to Lean in and Whisper it is Well

When In the Midst of Sorrow

I haven’t read my bible in two weeks. I have sat with it in my lap. I have opened the app a few times. I have avoided it as well. I love reading my bible. But these past few weeks I just haven’t had the heart.

Been there before? Yeah.

Have you ever been overwhelmed with so much sadness you couldn’t pray?

Have you ever been overwhelmed with so much life, you are just moving through the weeds as fast as you can so they don’t choke you?

My parent’s lost two very dear friends in the same week. My dearest of friends are struggling and wandering through a new season of aging parents and the heartache that weighs so heavily in this realm. So many friends are attending funerals. So many are struggling with anxiety and grief grip our hearts.

Outside the sky is pouring rain. Inside our hearts are drenched in tears.

And I haven’t read my bible in a few weeks. And my prayers are stuck in my throat.

Fear comes roaring in like a lion pounce upon every thought. I whisper to my husband and into the darkness, “I am afraid.” Believing that the whisper will carry with it some dim light to penetrate the dark night.

He holds me. He prays. I try to trust a little more. To clear away the fear and find the faith.

I open my bible app to glance over the verse of the day. “Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all you soul and with all your strength” Deuteronomy 6:5.

I get a text from my husband, “I’m always thinking about you.” My heart melts. That’s what Love means. To always think about someone. To think about them first. Always.

I haven’t read my bible in a few weeks but I haven’t stopped thinking about my God. My thoughts are simple in this season. “I know you are near Lord. Please draw near. I’m afraid God, give me faith. I trust you Jesus, help my unbelief.”

With all my heart and soul…with every breath and desire and emotion.

When my emotions overtake my thoughts, and all I can do is breathe. When my heart grieves because someone dear to us no longer has breath, I am reminded their soul is in the arms of Jesus. I catch my breath in awe.

We are all one breath from heaven and it is our breath, the inhaling and exhaling of life that reminds us of our mortality and the hope of Jesus.

Love the Lord your God with all your strength. Remember, “When I am weak, then I am strong” 2 Corinthians 12:10.

Always I am reminded of this, “Whatever my life thou has taught me to say, it is well, it is well with my soul.”

I read my bible today. I am leaning in. I am being taught to say, it is well.